I'm a recent graduate (April 2011) and passed the NCBTMB exam this month. I'll never stop learning and still feel student-like so I chose this forum. I'm curious for the established therapists, what was your first massage position and how long after graduating did you get it? I'm looking for some encouragement in your stories. Was it normal for you to have doubts about yourself and what you know? My school did not "formally" teach Swedish so I've been researching books/videos and practicing. I may be over analyzing but for me, it seems so vaguely cold when a spa or clinic says "must know Swedish and deep tissue." I feel strange or confused about the required modalities being so black and white because we weren't officially taught that way. Maybe I'm being too honest but I want to feel qualified.
Another thing, if your first place was a spa/clinic and you had a practicum with the employer...how did you beat anxiety? I love doing this and feel like it's something I need to do, it's so meaningful and fulfilling. I haven't been giving massages to friends and family lately and sense a difference in my mood. I'm eager to work but have a barrage of fears about being a good enough therapist for people. My life feels like a series of spiritual hills: massage school, NCBTMB, finding a place to work. This final one seems so tall. I want to climb it as much as I am afraid of it. Am I alone?
Another thing, if your first place was a spa/clinic and you had a practicum with the employer...how did you beat anxiety? I love doing this and feel like it's something I need to do, it's so meaningful and fulfilling. I haven't been giving massages to friends and family lately and sense a difference in my mood. I'm eager to work but have a barrage of fears about being a good enough therapist for people. My life feels like a series of spiritual hills: massage school, NCBTMB, finding a place to work. This final one seems so tall. I want to climb it as much as I am afraid of it. Am I alone?